This is the diary of a heavily tattooed trans woman as she makes progress towards a bodysuit. Why the tattooed toff? Because I am not as people think I should be. They assume from the way I speak and the clothes I wear that I am "normal" and are shocked when I show them my ink. I am a retired Chartered Accountant and retired BBC journalist too Now I have just started my transition this makes me more unusual.
There remains her right leg and face fully to cover. Everything else is remarkably complete, except I notice there's her head as well. I wonder if she will eventually go the whole way. Jacqui is now 41, so was only 33 when she started, and is the mother of two children. I do not believe that throughout the eight years of pain and resolve she was constantly saying to herself "that will show him" but rather once free from her marriage that she may have felt free to do something that she had for some time wanted to do, yet felt constrained from doing. Once she started getting tattooed after her divorce at some later point she may have just decided to go for it. But here I must pause for I run the serious risk of transferring my own experience on to her.
My first marriage ended after nearly 35 years. At that time I was not blank but had quite a few tattoos. My wife didn't like them and was a brake on my going very far. After she decided to leave me I was distraught but nevertheless went straight out and got one of my nipples pierced. It wasn't long before the tattoos began to follow.
Paula Hardy Kangelos
When I married again, over six years ago, my new wife helped me design a back piece and she did it very well. But she is seriously ambivalent about my tattoos and I don't think it's possible for someone without tattoos to imagine what progressing towards a body suit entails. Now she's sees what is happening, if she could, she would have me stop the process right now.
By coincidence, I was today reading an article by Paula Hardy Kangelos in Skin Deep magazine. She says her husband told her he had fallen out of love with her after she had her throat tattooed. She writes "I suppose it comes as a shock to our loved ones, after all, the phrase "I've always fancied a tattoo" does not generally conjure up ideas of sleeves, back pieces and body suits".
My wife is now critical of my tattoos but then she is critical of many other things about me, so it's hard to know if it's my tattoos that are harming my marriage. But I am aware that they might be.
My mind is focussed on just one kind of extreme body modification - heavy tattooing. My body appearance has changed drastically in the past five years. But what are other people's body modifications of choice? One is a practice known as "tight lacing", in which the users of corsets embark on reducing their waist sizes to as small at 17 or 18 inches, if they can. It's not something that grabs me but Lacie here ( www.staylace.com ) has dedicated herself to the practice. There are others like her who take it very seriously. It's a fetish and not necessarily permanent. If you give up regularly wearing this special kind of corset then you will eventually revert to normal. I have no plans to embark on this myself, but before I pass any judgement must reflect that what I am doing to myself is even more extreme. The images here are truly eye catching. I have never knowingly met anyone who is into tight lacing yet there is a big community out there who do it.
The work in my groin and pubic area has been completed. Years ago Louis Molloy did the central figure in this picture but avoided going all the way. Now Ben has tattooed a circle of clouds all around the image that goes as far as it can without inking my genitalia. This completes the work on my torso. Added to that Ben has worked some hair detail on a much older art nouveau image originally tattooed in the nineties. Months ago Ben covered the black hair with brown. Today he gave the hair some texture. To mark the end of this phase Ben took some pictures of my whole body.
This is how I look after being on hormone treatment for 18 months and after two lots of facial feminisation surgery. I have also had a lot of electrolysis on my beard. I have been transformed. And there is still quite a way to go yet. You can see some of my tattoos peeping out from the top of my dress. It seems evident now that my quest for a full body suit is linked to my gender dysphoria. I am not trying to suggest that everyone who gets a body suit suffer from dysphoria. Not at all. But in my case I think it is just one of a number of things I had been doing to change my appearance completely. Now my focus on being tattooed has dissipated as I continue my transition with my mind devoted now on my gender reassignment surgery scheduled for August of this year, 2020. Once my transition is finished then I must finish the work currently in progress on my legs. You can follow my transition via my YouTube videos. Just search for Zoë Genevieve Perry.