This is the diary of a heavily tattooed trans woman as she makes progress towards a bodysuit. Why the tattooed toff? Because I am not as people think I should be. They assume from the way I speak and the clothes I wear that I am "normal" and are shocked when I show them my ink. I am a retired Chartered Accountant and retired BBC journalist too Now I have just started my transition this makes me more unusual.
What makes me want a body suit?
I quite often ask myself why do I want a tattoo body suit? Why do I want to cover my whole body with tattoos? What is the fascination and what gives me the drive and determination to do this?
The photos here show a range of types of body suit. I'm not at all sure the final one is for real, but it looks great.
If you look elsewhere on my blog you will see plenty of evidence of my significant progress in that direction. By the end of this year all my torso, both my upper arms and my thighs will be fully covered. That leaves my legs and lower arms.
The answer to my own question is:
1) I am excited by the idea of the transformation of my body. I want to be different from the overwhelming majority of the population. In large measure I have already achieved that. It alters my sexual identity and my personal characteristics. It means in many ways I am not a white man any more but a man of many colours. How thrilling. But what I've done already is not enough.
2) I want to complete one thing in my life. In many ways I see myself as a nearly man. In politics I was a parliamentary candidate but never an MP. In business I was a financial director but never the general manager - a job I coveted for many years. In broadcasting I was a reporter but never a presenter on Radio 4, which was my goal - perhaps unrealistically.
I speak both Spanish and Dutch well and fluently but I never stayed long enough in Latin America and Holland to complete the job. My vocabulary and ability to understand all I hear is not what I aspire to. My first marriage lasted a long time, 35 years, but in the end it failed.
So there is one thing over which I full control, unlike most of those above, and that is completing a body suit.
It's something I can do, unless my life is suddenly cut short. Yes, it's never possible to be 100% in control.
3) I have changed inside me. I look at my uninked skin and want it to be inked. Anything else is unsatisfactory. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is my natural skin on my legs, arms and face and neck.
I suspect there are some deeper psychological reasons beyond those I've listed and when I've discovered them I'll let you know.
My mind is focussed on just one kind of extreme body modification - heavy tattooing. My body appearance has changed drastically in the past five years. But what are other people's body modifications of choice? One is a practice known as "tight lacing", in which the users of corsets embark on reducing their waist sizes to as small at 17 or 18 inches, if they can. It's not something that grabs me but Lacie here ( www.staylace.com ) has dedicated herself to the practice. There are others like her who take it very seriously. It's a fetish and not necessarily permanent. If you give up regularly wearing this special kind of corset then you will eventually revert to normal. I have no plans to embark on this myself, but before I pass any judgement must reflect that what I am doing to myself is even more extreme. The images here are truly eye catching. I have never knowingly met anyone who is into tight lacing yet there is a big community out there who do it.
The work in my groin and pubic area has been completed. Years ago Louis Molloy did the central figure in this picture but avoided going all the way. Now Ben has tattooed a circle of clouds all around the image that goes as far as it can without inking my genitalia. This completes the work on my torso. Added to that Ben has worked some hair detail on a much older art nouveau image originally tattooed in the nineties. Months ago Ben covered the black hair with brown. Today he gave the hair some texture. To mark the end of this phase Ben took some pictures of my whole body.
Jamie Wintle is from Brislington in Bristol and had just had his new head tattoo done at Avon Tattoo by Jordan Ferris. https://www.facebook.com/JordanFerrisTattoo/ He'd been planning it for a while and Jordan found the script he was looking for and it was completed in three hours. In the next few weeks he'll get the other side of his head done. Jamie works at a car body shop so it's no problem getting visible tattoos. He was with Jodie. They have been a couple for a year. Tattoos helped attract him to her. Being together encourages her to get more ink, knowing he will like it. He even encourages her. She is busy getting her arms done by Dave Middleton at Somerton near Glastonbury. https://www.facebook.com/unit2tattoo/ So they are getting tattooed together and seemingly getting their hair styles together. Let's hope their compatibility keeps them together.